Cover letter

I feel like I still write the same just with more complex words and metaphors. My mind state hasn't really changed over this year. Maybe it just got more tired. As a reader nothing has changed at all. I just keep reading books I like. I've read over 60 books this year. I wouldn't say I have succeeded in developing fluency because I'm already pretty good at that. My favorite books I've read this year are probably "Scythe and Akata Witch." I haven't discovered any new authors or genres I like because I read everything but if I like a book I'll probably read it in a day. I have more strength in writing poems than non fiction essays because I like clever wordplay. The most important piece I've written this year was "This forsaken heart of mine," because it brings awareness to my mental illness and how I feel. I wouldn't burn any pieces because it's cool to look at them a couple years from now. Other writers always fill there books or essays with unnecessary information and I just get right to the point. I guess I'm satisfied with how much I read this year. I'm still going to write over the summer because I have a journal but I will mainly be sleeping. Writing feels forced now. Like it's being shoved down my throat. Just like most of my classes in this school. Just like most the teachers telling me I'll never be anything. Maybe I won't, maybe I will. I'm not going to follow the instructions for this prompt because I know you don't want to hear me talk about my writing habits all day cause you already know. You should know what I'm going through. Shall I just behave like a good student or write how I actually feel. Why do you make me write these tedious prompts? It is really that important? You're just following instruction right? I'm a decent student but I'm tired of all of this. I've been living in my mind. Let's answer some questions from this list. I would burn all my pieces of writing. All of my pieces are difficult to write. None of them are enjoyable. I haven't used any strategies for writing. I don't need to improve because it's already garbage. My long range goal as a writer is to not have to deal with people telling me how to write. There is no way you can write 1000 words on this. You already know everything about me. There is nothing to tell. You know what's wrong with me. I've already lost 30 pounds because I'm starving myself. I've hit a point in my life where I just don't care about anyone. The people around me try to help but they can't. Let's answer some more questions shall we? I haven't improved my text. My fluency is stronger than most. Book clubs were torture. So was annotations. I haven't learned anything new from this class. Nothing. Oh, and don't feel the need to tell the councilor or whomever because I already have enough people watching my every move. Over 20 doctors and I still have problems. If you want to help me you will just leave me alone. You will ignore this entire cover letter because at this point it's more of a letter to you. Another person who is apart or the normal world. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to talk to anyone besides my mom. Just stay away from me.