"...Losing everything in such a short amount of time really fucks with you. It makes you assume a sort of persona that wants the world to feel what you feel. It's been a year or so since I've decided to disappear from society and now, I live like a technological nomad who has bipolar episodes; Someone who takes 7-10 pills a day just to stay alive for a couple hours. I gave up on the generosity or supposed niceties of a society slowly dying. There was no point in displaying ignorance and joining the sheep. It's not like I'm a Shepherd either though, I would rather stay anonymous, for my face to become a forgotten memory to those who knew me in real life. I wake up every day wanting to die yet being too scared to do anything about it, too scared for others to be affected by it even though it's dumb to assume that they would. I go from doctor to doctor to doctor and now I'm at the point where I'm being considered for Spinal Injections. I'm only fucking 18 and I feel like an old man. I guess I continue to write just to keep my sanity in check even though nobody will probably read this and care. Eh, the world is going to shit anyways, whatever..."
"U.B.C - The Opening Of The World"
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